#29 - From Every day to Every Phase - Ovulatory

From Every day to Every Phase

every phase #29 - ovulatory - the 11th cycle

from every day to every phase

I asked my fear, "what's

on the other side of you?"

then she screamed, freedom!

In alignment with this eclipse-filled blood moon retrograde, I chose to re-create one of my self-portraits.  The self-portrait I decided to revisit was the first self-portrait I shot using my unique scanography technique in which I turned a camera into a large format camera, flattening the focal plane for an ethereal and shallow depth of field. The subject sort of becomes the "negative", just as the eclipse seems to 'flatten-out' the moon.

I remember the person in this image being scared of their body.  

Uncertain when the train of pain would run them over and rule their life.  I lived in fear of my period, of my pelvic floor, and my entire reproductive system.  I was scared to face it, to really know more about it, even though I was taking the typical western medicine 'actions' on the outside.  To the outsider, it appeared as though I was virtuously working through this horrible disease of endometriosis, yet I had not looked on the inside and faced myself--that was too scary.

Not looking (out of fear) is what kept me stuck. As societally taught, I was relying on others (doctors, therapists, etc.) to tell me about me, instead of looking for myself. These half-truths or illusions give people a false sense of stability & comfort which they may 'trade-in' over really looking at the truth when in reality, facing your pain and seeing yourself for who you really are is the only way to any kind of power or freedom.

When I started to look, by facing my pain, I started to see myself for who I really was.  I started to see why I chose my trauma, to awaken certain aspects of myself.  I started to see that my pain & trauma caused me to gain a depth of knowledge about the universal truth of oneness, freedom, and a rich understanding of the masculine & feminine polarities.  In short, I had to realize how powerful I was. That's why I had this traumatic life occur.

Upon educating myself on how women's hormones work, and the realization that the modern world operates on a man's hormonal clock, I stopped scheduling my life in the 'every-day', and zoomed out to the seasonal, cyclical nature of not only my body, but the universe--every phase.  

I am a biological woman, so I began to honor that, to be proud of that, instead of trying to make it fit into a man's world.  I started to see my cycle as my super-power, something unique to my femininity, and to be celebrated.  My cycle is what makes me different, but it is also what has connected me more intimately to the oneness with others because I am connected to the source within, myself.  

Both masculine and feminine polarities are two halves that complete one whole within each person.  You need both, which is what makes 'competition' between the sexes pointless and really laughable.  Everyone has both energetic polarities within, regardless of what's between your legs.  The goal is to address and balance both.  They are both equally valuable, but they are different.  Each bring different insights and should be celebrated for that.

A woman's cycle mirrors the cycle of the moon.  The uterus sheds its lining every 28 days (about), and in our solar system, the moon makes one revolution around the Earth every 27.322 days.  Lunar eclipses are extremely powerful for voicing our intentions of what we would like, because the energetic cycles of the eclipse can extend throughout the following three months afterward.  The May 16th Super Flower Blood Moon is a perfect motif for the ovulatory phase--the magnetic, fertile & fearless phase.  It's when we have the energy to communicate dynamically, and really get our point across due to the surging estrogen-increasing synaptic connections, boosting our sharpness and our ability to use our voice.

See you in June. 💌

5 period myths, busted...

The science from floliving.com >>>

1) PMS is normal

This myth is so harmful, as it leaves so many women suffering unnecessarily with premenstrual symptoms, from mood swings to bloating to acne. PMS is used against women too, to dismiss our feelings, opinions, and judgements and to put us in the “hormonal” box (as though men don’t have hormones too!). I have renamed PMS, Prioritizing MySelf, and if more women did this, fewer would have these symptoms. PMS is absolutely triggered by diet choices (coffee, sugar, dairy, dieting, juice fasts, and low fat fads), but it’s also triggered by the wider suppression of feminine energy...PMS only arises from an imbalance of estrogen to progesterone during the luteal phase. The truth is simply that ratio can be improved with food – period....

2) You’re supposed to have cramps

I often hear women say that we’re supposed to have cramps, or that we’re wired for them, or that it’s just women’s lot in life to suffer with period pain. I hate to hear this, because it’s simply not true. Did you know that while your body has 1 type of prostaglandin – PgE2 – which causes uterine contractions and, so, period cramps; your body also has 2 types of prostaglandin – PgE1 and PgE3 –  that actually exist to counteract the contractions and are antispasmodic i.e. natural pain killers. Your body has twice the capacity for pain relief as for causing period pain!...

3) You still have a period on the pill 

The bleed you experience when on the birth control pill is a withdrawal bleed and not physiologically the same as menstruation. The pill, if you take your monthly break, actually creates a false period, for no other reason than…marketing!...

4) You don’t need to have a period 

Every so often an op-ed circulates in which some expert argues that women don’t need to have a period, that it’s somehow outdated or unnecessary, or even unhealthy to have a period! This myth is based in misinformation. Ovulation, and therefore menstruation, is important for ensuring bone, heart, and breast health and protecting women against some of the most common diseases...

5) You can’t change your bad period

When you get a cold, what do you do? Do you just let it run its course or do you do something? Most of us will up our vitamin C, sleep more, eat some good chicken soup and take care of ourselves to get better. When your period isn’t feeling good – i.e. you have cramps, heavy bleeding, spotting etc – we tend to just think that’s how things are for us, and that there’s nothing that can be done about it...

Finish reading the rest of this extraordinary article here

More info on the Ovulatory phase here

More info on infradian rhythm + hormonal health: Womancode + In the flo